Tuesday, April 26, 2011

My day at OSU

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A little something from my day in Corvallis

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Stuck at Home

What's a boy to do when he's stuck at home? A boy must experiement and play otherwise the boy might get bored. Boredom for me is never a good thing. So I experimented...

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See... this is what happens when I cook. Yup, that's right, I set off the smoke detector cooking breakfast. Breakfast was yummy, and I got these sun rays captured coming through the window.

Squirrels are becoming my favorite subject on a day where I am stuck at home. We have half a dozen of these little guys that just roam around the yard asking, no begging, to be photographed. How can I say no to a face like that?

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Yuppers... My neighbor fixed his birdbath. If you recall from a few weeks ago I blogged about my neighbors and photographed this birdbath laying on the ground. It has since been fixed. I wonder if my neighbor reads my blog?

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This is what boredom really looks like. Two turn tables and a microphone. My many thanks to The Whiffenpoofs for their help in getting this shot off. 

Now it is time to wrap so I can go enjoy an Easter dinner with my lovely and patient wife and my two wonderful daughters. I hope that your holiday was filled with family warmth and love. 

Saturday, April 23, 2011

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It is amazing that from October until the end of March I was able to make a run at being a professional photographer. I got to live the dream, and then watch it die a quick death. I was on the brink of several huge opportunities, but because nothing was guaranteed and I was forced to a make a decision that affected my families homeless status. I was had to take a job, temporary or not. I did the right thing, but that doesn't prevent me from being deeply saddened by the loss of my dream.

As I make the transition from career to hobby, I would like to look at what I accomplished during my six months as a professional photographer as well as what went wrong. So let's start with the negative and document what went wrong:

  • I failed at marketing myself and getting my pricing in order early on. This is my failure. I own this. By not executing, following through and pushing myself further, I failed myself.
  • I couldn't focus. All of the professional seminars I watched and attended stated one thing in common; "Pick one field, be it wedding, portrait, food, pet, senior or other, but pick one and push it. If you can't focus yourself into one field, you stretch yourself too thin and will never be successful." This is another one I own. I get bored easy so I pushed myself to defy what everyone was saying, and I paid the price.
  • Salem is full of people who want everything for free. Call it the economy, culture or something else, but everyone wants everything for free. You can see it in Craigslist ads, I want a professional photographer for my wedding, but I don't want to pay a dime. You see this in ads like "We want professional photos from someone who wants to build their portfolio." This translates to I want it free. This is not me complaining about the jobs I did for free. I did the work I did for free because I was building a small portfolio of photos to help market myself. But then when it came time to book paying gigs, the people never came through with the payments or backed out. I own part of this as well, I should have required half down up front. This is a lesson learned and will not pose an issue moving forward.
  • My life as it sits now is not condusive to running my own business. Child support, visitation schedule, sharing a car with my wife and Fibromyalgia, while alone are not completely hindering, but combined are far too restrictive to do what is needed to become successful. So unless I can find a way to correct these situations I won't be successful in any endevor.

Now on to the positive. What did I accomplish during the last six months? I made some amazing friends. I tested a concept that I might be able to work I became connected with creative self. I worked with some amazing people and I created some amazing art.

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And finally I learned a lot about myself. This is attributed to my experience with the Artist Way. I found in that group a new family of caring and giving people who although undeniably different than I am, a so similiar in their fears and frustrations. There was a lot growth and healing that happened to me through the artist way and through the relationships developed. This is possibly the most important experience I had over the last six months, and while I have light years to travel still, this was the start of an important journey for me.

 

So while my professional photography career appears to be cut cut short, it is a short termed delay. I have bigger plans for Salem and I will soon be in the face of those that have ignored me recently. Get ready Salem cause here I come.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Birds, Books and Boomerangs

We have such an interesting collection of wild birds that hang around our house. I have no choice but to break out my 200mm lens to try and capture them. Sure I bait them, but it is for mutual gain. I get their photograph, they get fed and you get to see the results. Everyone wins.

Last night I was given the gift of creative collaboration. Rick and Paul came by the studio to so something creative. Paul brought a cool collection of books from 1926. Beautiful gold leaf pages and textured black bindings. I have a great appreciation of old books and I did my best to capture the beauty and craftsmanship put in to books.

Paul also brought a wonderful boomerang. It wasa functional and decorative piece that had definitely been used.

Thanks Paul and Rick for a great evening of fun and creativity.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Sunny Delight

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This is not about the sugary juice drink but rather paying tribute to a long lost friend... the sun. Welcome home my friend. Welcome home.

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Nope this isn't the juice drink but rather me displaying a little love and respect for my long lost friend... the sun

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Move On

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Move On

 

You don’t approve of my mind, move on

You don’t approve of my wife, move on

You don’t approve of my art, move on

I am not alive to seek your approval

But I am doing the best I can do

I have only the God has given me

If that isn’t enough for you, move on

 

You don’t approve of my way, move on

You don’t approve of Fibro, move on

You don’t approve of my life, move on

I am not here for you to approve

But I do my best to do what’s right

If that isn’t to your taste, move on

 

To be like you means not being me

To meet your standards means failing me

To live your life means ignoring mine

I’m not here to be a clone of you

I am here to be me, who I am

If I am not good enough, move on

 

Hate my voice of expression, move on

Hate my need to heal what’s broke, move on

Hate passion that comes from pain, move on

Embrace me or not, friend or un-friend

I do not apologize for me

Chose a path of your own and move on